Finally.

Exams are officially over for the year. I was stressed out til I had pimples on my face after exams

Current events, daddy UNEXPECTEDLY brought back a DSLR for me and my sis. Which I've been begging him like forever to get me one. he mentioned last week before he left for Singapore that he would get me a surprise, but I never expected him to bring home a DSLR.

last year my dad promised me if I get 6As and above out of 8 subjects for PMR, he would get me an iPhone. In the end I only got 5, which disappointed me so bad that I walked out of school crying after claiming my result slip. my dad pitied me so he thought of buying me a Sony nex. But I chose to get an iPhone over the camera. and since then, I waited til I get one. The only time I get to use high end cameras like these are during special events with my family or my friends and I'd 'steal' their DSLRs and start snapping photos. that's why u barely see me in pictures Cause' sometimes I'm the one taking them,

Btw, I love ya daddyy

I don't have the confidence to go for my chemistry paper tomorrow

I WILL BE BACK

I will be back to my old self who loves blogging so much. Just wait. Im pretty frustrated lately with exams and all, but to be really honest, I'm not really the kind of girl who puts in a lot of effort in studies. but this time, MAYBE I am. Just little bit of slacking here and there though xD

random :)

I'm really irresponsible these days xD sorry about that.

So I read about this restaurant in straits quay; DELICIOUS the food was pretty good. Especially the deserts!!! Like heaven! Even though we only had two of their deserts and their other main courses, it was a good dinner. We didnt get to sit inside the restaurant cause it was packed. The decos are great! But I didn't get snap any pics on the inside. But oh well. I'm definitely going back.

Steve jobs

RIP STEVE JOBS. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED ON HOW AMAZING YOUR CREATIONS CHANGED THE WORLD. I OWN AN IPHONE AND I'VE NEVER REGRETTED BUYING IT. YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND ; A PURE GENIUS. MY CONDOLENCES GO OUT TO HIS FRIENDS AND FAMILY.

Kpop talent contest

I saw the kpop hits talent show champions! Ruffneck'z!! And I'll let all the other pictures do the talking

Merdeka day celebration

I'm very very bad at maintaining this blog. Had a merdeka celebration in school after the holidays. I'll make the pics do all the talking

blogger app

I'm Blogging with my phone Hahah so much more convenient now :):)

I Never Do Well In School

My exam is in less than a week, and you know what? I'm.not.ready :\ when it comes to exams, i'm never ready for any subject (except for English) For the past month I kept reminding myself to start studying 1 month earlier for the test so that I could have more time. and i DID! BUTTT, I have the idea that studying one month earlier is like a piece of cake, so i ended up just going through a few pages, and I kept telling myself: You have one month, there's still a lot of time. and ending up delaying my study schedules, resulting "burning the midnight oil".

I have to admit I regret doing that, I've attempted one putting in determination just for once but then, it was such an EPIC FAIL. I never do well in school, i admit it to myself that I'm a pretty lazy person. I own so many gadgets around me that I don't even bother to remind myself about the goals I've set. But thank god, I could attend tuition classes. in some ways, they really do help. My other classmates would take tuition classes like 7 days a week. I couldn't believe they would actually have time to breathe. I can't take it going for tuition classes everyday cause, I won't even have any free time, plus my mom encouraged me to study on my own (be independent).
So I only go for subjects that I'm weak at. Upper secondary is way harder than lower sec. Sometimes I feel like burning all of my books, the drastic change in our syllabus is not making me any better

Wish me luck :)
til then

Mr. Simple - Super Junior

The MV came out yesterday. THE SONG IS AWESOME. at least there's something different. okay i have to admit, Kpop is kinda awesome. :) No regrets being a Kpop fan.
I waited for so long for SUJU to start performing, I got so bored watching other performances cause' I don't watch a lot of Music Bank. (I usually watch Inkigayo on TV and they air slower.)
an hour and a half of boredom they finally came out for their comeback stage. I was screaming in my living room. (No one was at home, the hell i could do what i want)

I wanna be their Mrs. SIMPLE xD

Mr. Simple

They're coming back! the concept looks.....weird. It's NOT SIMPLE AT ALL! hahah
and where the heck is KI BUM?!?!??!
When I was told he's doing the comeback with the others I was really excited. Since he's said he was major in acting maybe he doesn't have the time to do Kpop activities with the boys.

I'm already dying to see the teaser.

It's about time i expressed it.

I'm never really good in expressing my feelings. Even when it comes to writing it down. I don't have anyone to turn to when i'm feeling depressed or facing problems. My house is filled with busy people and they don't exactly give a damn with the others. I'm the type of girl that never really fits in in a crowd. Sometimes in school i feel quite alone sometimes, maybe during recess I would just sit there aimlessly knowing what's going on. I'm very very very bad in starting conversation and sometimes would rely on the other to start talking to me. I may have a very weird attitude and I might talk a little bit differently cause I'm not used to the speaking very good/normal chinese when i grew up. Sometimes I do realize people may talk behind my back or maybe build a barrier between me and them. Sometimes I do feel happy with some people who doesn't care how weird I am and it's very easy talking to them ,sometimes laughing. One conversation with a person already puts a huge smile on my face.

I come home every single day most of the time feeling so alone and sometimes Sometimes, I do feel like i wanna cry. I have a sister who comes home during evenings and a mother is always stuck in cyberworld.

Things may not go right for me. I don't know which path I should take. Feeling lost and lonely sometimes makes me wanna give up on living.
I know I'm very very emotional right now but i've felt this way for a long time now. and i honestly don't know what to do. maybe it's fate, i'm meant be like this the whole time.

FIT

I don't exercise. My mom has been nagging me to take at least 20 minutes of my time after school to go on my stationery bike. But I never did. Until there's this compulsory running program every student in Malaysia needs to attend. I nearly passed out along the way. So I didn't complete the run. I haven't been very active ever since i quit tennis last year. So that's badd. My mom already gave me a lecture after that instead of asking whether I was okay. -.-
that was unexpected though.

just out of randomness.

ICAN'TSTOPSTARINGATTHISPICTUREE.
SARANGHAE KYUHYUN :)

Bubble Wrap

Remember when you were a little kid, When you have a working mom who puts you in the babysitter's or at grandma's? What entertains you is popping bubble wrappers :) When I used to go to my grandma's house during the weekdays when I was a kid, my grandma would always find bubble wrappers to keep me preoccupied. Popping the plastic gives that 'pop' sound telling yourself it's fun popping "bubbles"

The other day my home delivery pizza came a half hour to 45 minutes late. So, the delivery boy gave me a free cup in a box. And i found a bubble wrapper in it (the cup's glass you know). Until now, me being a 16-year-old still find popping bubble wrappers fun :)(it's pretty lame, i know) It takes me back to how fun it was being a kid, and reminded me that I've grown up real fast how things in my life drastically changed in just a blink of an eye.

I need inspiration. Sometimes I do realize that i sorta live a boring life, sometimes making wrong choices leading me into it. I'm turning 16 this month and I need a serious change of attitude.