I mean it this time.

Blogging activities for me will be held back (after today) til PMR ends.(13/10)

Good luck to all the Form 3s!

Things to do after PMR;

-Catch up on:

Gossip Girl season 4,

Glee season 2,

Vampire diaries! (finish where i left off),

Go MAD!

get my electric guitar. (maybe gonna change my mind)

if possible, mom's getting me a baby grand piano. yay!(now you know why about the guitar)

Shop til i drop

more and more MOVIES!

see, i even planned out on what i'm gonna do.

is it weird?

looking as hot as ever!

Season 3 photoshoot. Hello upper east side.

Leighton Meester. :)

Charice is gonna be on upcoming season of GLEE! :D She even got botox for the show. nice one. omgg i can't wait for this one especially! Thanks to Oprah, even asians can be part of a hit phenomenon.

until then i will be back in a jiffy!

loves.

Another boring update.

how i wish i never existed.

I've been at home every single day on my own. yes. I was all alone ALL WEEK.

I don't get if its just me or the fact that i've been that lonely girl all along. Walking around the house like some mindless zombie. Mom has to ground me til after PMR. I can't do anything at home. My eyes feel like they're about to pop out. (regarding the fact that my eyes are feeling very very weird right now.) I've wasted useless hours talking to myself(yes, i'm THAT insane) or falling asleep in any part of the house.

I can't take this anymore. i know its freaky that i'm saying this, but the HOLIDAYS are KILLING me! think about it! if you were to get stuck at home for one whole week with nobody except you in the house. Sometimes I even wished that comitting suicide isn't a sin. Unfortunately it is.

Studying.. Not a single piece of shit is going to my brain. How the hell am I gonna go for PMR??
God, please help me. I'm about to breakdown like a baby.

I'm all aloneeee. :(

Mom and Dad went to work, Sis is at her Godmom's place til tuesday. I'm all alone, (as always)

i feel like going out just ONE time this week. damnnn, this sucks.

Saturday update, watched GROWN UPS. Adam Sandler's movies never fails to please me. :D

kay thats it.

i'm fallling to pieces.

Raya Holidays are here. PMR, only 32 days left. that's like a month away. I cannot WAIT for this month to be over. I feel like i'm about self destruct any minute. practically being lazy and blogging right here is the culprit.

Trials wasn't really satisfying. I'm a bit anxious at times. Getting PMR results; coming home crying regretting for putting in all the effort just for one freakin' exam; having to urge to commid suicide, and you know the rest to all of the drama.

I'm SO glad holidays are here, means i would have lots of time to study on my own and not wasting time in school listening to blabbering teachers talking crap and sometimes wasting our time not studying at all. Yeah, SOME teachers. -.- Mental teachers are not qualified to teach in a school. an ordinary school in fact. Mental illnesses that even freaked students in class as if we're animals. C'mon! we're people! we deserved to be treated like one. Plus, after all of that studying, i realized i put on lots of weight. the stupid thing is, I would still try to get my hands into the fridge every half hour while i'm in the middle of studying. yeahh. I'm FAT! and i'm not the kind of person who works out much. thats the sad part.

btw, Happy birthday my mommaaa!! :D
should have got her a present when i went out with my friends. xD

♥

something i can't live without.

I just love this video. Taylor Swift. :)

31/ August/ 1957

i know its a little late but,

HAPPY 53rd MERDEKA!!!!

Went back to Holy Spirit church after 8 months! :O things got awkward at times. since i haven't been there for so long. xD Had a Medeka BBQ together with a countdown for merdeka day, i went home nearly half deaf after going through lots and lots of screaming!!!

It was a holiday and mom's been pressuring me to study, but i ended up sleeping instead. damn, i've been sleeping like a pig lately. haahhah I gotta get ready for the stupid exam.

date, 5th of Oct. its coming pretty fast. shit.