free from feelings.

When relatives trying to compare with you and your siblings, some gets the pressure but some doesn't exactly care. For instance,

Your grandma get your younger sibling to study hard and practically trying to encourage them to get better grades in school, saying they will get rewards from them if you do well in school, and to be more encouraging, saying that they are so much smarter than their elder sibling. She hears it, inside saying one day if she had the guts she might even try to kick her ass, in other words, in stings inside, she runs upstairs to her room breaking down like an immature little girl. Mom right beside her saying comforting words to make her feel better. But somehow it doesn't work, cause' all moms have to say that. While the others out there are straightforward and judging on their personality, which sometimes can be unconvincingly true. She felt extremely bad about herself, saying to herself that her younger sister is going to be even more sucessful than her. While her heart still stung like as if she's about to rip her heart out as she can't stand it. Which on that day on, made her hate her own grandmother for the rest of her life maybe. Not wanting to go back visiting her ever again.

trying to keep her mind off the incident, she takes a book to read, trying to focus on the pages, but it was to hard. She breaks down even harder, her mom can't stand to look at her own daughter like this as she slowly puts her to sleep. Not all relatives are nice. Some are fucking arrogant, some can hurt their loved one.