Beat That.

its raining...again, i'm so bored here
i can't go out cuz.....mainly, I SUCK!! well, obviously i'm sort of the LAME one...it reeks, just put me in a coffin and let me die there!!!
as u you can see this a very emo post..cuz apparently i wanna start expressing my true feelings here...

I started in CDK later than most of the people there...cuz i was a new student, and i thought fitting in would be easy for me, turned out my form 1 class r filled with so-called LALAs ,
well of course i tried talking to them instead of sitting alone like a dumb person...most have different interests i'd say... and some of then are BAD...for example there was this girl who sat next to me in class, she didn't attend school for nearly a week...everyone was curious, til she was caught in an internet cafe doing i-dunno-what...she ditched school!!!

now's my second year here, also in a new class...the people here seem pretty cool to me, i could also socialize with more people from another class, and there's the most popular girl in school...with my nemesis, whenever i wanna approach to her, she keeps pulling her away so that i wouldn't "STEAL" her friends...she said so once, but then she lied that she was joking...but she wasn't..
and right now, i've lost confidence ...i can't start a conversations, well, most of the time...i can't even find a close friend...misery is taking over my life.. i've never had a real friend here, nobody really cares..

xoxo